moments, magic & MUSIC, ♥

Believe in luck...

2010-02-10T16:27:00.003-05:00

Do you believe in luck?

We make our own luck. I believe in fate, though..?

What d'you wanna know?

Best thing about vampires...

2010-02-10T16:25:00.002-05:00

What would be the best thing about being a vampire?

Immortality, definitely. & the idea that you can live & love forever. <3

What d'you wanna know?

Question for god...

2010-02-09T21:33:00.002-05:00

If you could ask God one question what would it be?

Purpose of life?

What d'you wanna know?

Superpowers...

2010-02-09T21:32:00.005-05:00

If you could have a super power, what would it be?

Superspeed + Flying. They GOTTA come together.

What d'you wanna know?

Favorite season...

2010-02-09T21:32:00.004-05:00

What's your favorite season of the year?

Summertiiiiiiiime. <3

What d'you wanna know?

Insecurities...

2010-02-09T21:27:00.002-05:00

Do you have any insecurities?

too many.

What d'you wanna know?

Famous people...

2010-02-09T21:23:00.002-05:00

Who's the most famous person you've met?

haha, um...Raven Symone? And I been to the Jonas Brothers concert, and Jordin Sparks as there + Honor Society + Demi Lovato. But I didn't get to meet them...yet. ;) ahaa

What d'you wanna know?

Favorite movie...part 2

2010-02-09T21:22:00.002-05:00

Oh wow, I repeated it D: I'm such a loser. Oh - so what is your favorite movie and why?

I have so many, but most recently..Sherlock Holmes & Public Enemies. Great acting, great actors, great script & dialogue, great score, amazingggg plot. Especially since Sherlock's a classic, and Public Enemies is based on a true story. <3

What d'you wanna know?

House on fire...

2010-02-09T21:19:00.002-05:00

If your house was on fire and you could only grab three things, what would they be?

Goooooood question! :) My zune, my winnie the pooh blanket, and a backpack full of my valuables. HA, y'never said I couldn't be ready for th fire? 8-) :P

What d'you wanna know?

Always keep...

2010-02-09T21:18:00.005-05:00

What's one thing you own that you should probably throw away, but never will?

My Winnie The Pooh blankie. :$

What d'you wanna know?

Greatest invention...

2010-02-09T21:17:00.002-05:00

What do you think was the greatest invention in your lifetime?

the mp3 player. haha, music wherever you go. <3

What d'you wanna know?

Morning or night...

2010-02-09T21:14:00.002-05:00

Are you a morning or night person?

LOL...I'm a night person, ALL SEXUAL INNUENDOS ASIDE. I love the nighttime, and as much as I love the sunshine and sunrise, I love sunsets and the moon waaaaay more. =)

What d'you wanna know?

Dream job...

2010-02-09T21:10:00.002-05:00

What would your dream job look like?

I wanna be a writer + lawyer + mommy, realistically, but the dream job would def. include acting--with all my favourite hollywood men. <3 hah

What d'you wanna know?

Perfect date...

2010-02-09T21:06:00.002-05:00

how would your "perfect" date go?

I think any date can be perfect as long as you're with the right person. :) But I love the dinner + movie thing, it's easy, entertaining, and traditional, lol. But I like Amusement parks a lot, too.

What d'you wanna know?

Starring...

2010-02-09T20:52:00.005-05:00

If you could have the starring role in one movie what would it be?

Any movie with Paul Walker, Brad Pitt, Johnny Depp, Marshall Mathers, Nick Jonas, and trust me, the list goes ON. haha <3

What d'you wanna know?

Genre of music...

2010-02-09T20:52:00.004-05:00

What's your favorite genre of music?

Everything.

What d'you wanna know?

Style of dance expert...

2010-02-09T20:51:00.002-05:00

If you could instantly become an expert at one style of dance, what style would you pick?

Wow um...LOL where'd this question even come from? haha... but I think, maybe...hip hop? or ballroom or something, that's pretty cool.

What d'you wanna know?

Been in love...

2010-02-09T20:50:00.005-05:00

Ever been in love?

Not yet?

What d'you wanna know?

Last book read...

2010-02-09T20:50:00.004-05:00

What was the last book you read?

The Orchids & Gumbo Poker Club. <3

What d'you wanna know?

Believe in love...

2010-02-09T20:49:00.005-05:00

Do you believe in love?

Not yet.

What d'you wanna know?

Favorite food...

2010-02-09T20:49:00.004-05:00

If you had to give up one favorite food, what would the most difficult?

Pizza. Chocolate. Pasta. Seafood--sushi, shrimp, lobster, etc. LOL I love food. :$

What d'you wanna know?

Secret to happiness...

2010-02-09T20:47:00.002-05:00

What's the secret to happiness?

No secret, just chasing it and it'll come to ya.

What d'you wanna know?

Author of a book?

2010-02-09T20:46:00.002-05:00

If you could have been the author of any book, what would it have been?

um..the Nicholas Sparks books, maybe some Dr. Seuss, Jane Austin, and def. the Time Traveler's Wife. ...basically the love stories of the ages. <3

What d'you wanna know?

Empire State of Mind (Jay Z ft. Alicia Keys)

2010-02-05T18:06:00.003-05:00

This might possibly be the fastest post I've ever made.

I'm going to New York today--er, tonight, whatever, that's besides the point.

In any other circumstance, I'd be so excited. I'd be overwhelmingly happy, and I'd probably have an entire playlist made for the ride there.

But not in this case.

See, unfortunately, the reason I'm going is 'cause my younger cousin, Sean,
has just been diagnosed with Leukemia. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Leukemia

I know he's going to be okay, but I just want to--have to see him, y'know?

Anyway, I didn't even go to school today, I'm still sick, but I'm getting better. My voice is still gone though.

And the playlist-thing, ~~that's a no-go~~. My Zune's arrived, but I have yet to pick it up--and even if I did, it'll take an entire day to upload all my music, videos, and pictures. And to update the settings.

Aw well. I brought a book, and I'll get some rest, hopefully.

Kay, like I said, I don't have much time, so this post ends now.
But I'll leave you with some photos & stuff, it's the least I could do. =)

In New York, concrete jungle where dreams are made of,
There's nothing you can't do,
Now you're in New York,
These streets will make you feel brand new,
Big lights will inspire you,
Let's hear it for New York, New York, New York...

xoxo, Ad.

How Soon Is Now? (tAtu)

2010-02-01T00:36:00.010-05:00

Guess who's working on finishing her anthro. essay?

Guess who's STARTED her anthro. essay?

Guess who's ~~not on msn or twitter or facebook~~, because she's going to finish her anthro. essay?

UPDATE: February 1st, 2010 > 8:07am, I'm officially finished my anthro essay! woohoooo! About to print off the finished copy, & drop it off at school. : )

(If you guessed ME for all three answers, not only are you CORRECT,

but you're awesome, for believing in me! <3)

...so, thanks. =)

Alright, so...I'm gonna finish downloading the music on my To Do list...only 13 songs, I promise!
(hey, a tiger can't change its spots in ONE NIGHT. gimme a break)

This thing's gonna be finished tonight.
I really have no choice, tomorrow's the last day of exams (for others, my exams are finito :D) and then second semester begins on Wednesday.

This thing's waaay past overdue.

Now it's such an understatement to say that I put the pro in procrastination. I mean, sure, it has the advantage of being 110% true, but geez,
I need a new slogan. loll

Okie dokes, one more thing to talk about tonight before I sign off:
The 2010 Grammy Awards.

The Grammys were amazing, by the way. I had two favorite parts.

One of them (of course) was Eminem & Lil Wayne's medley of DROP THE WORLD, and then when Drake joined in to perform FOREVER.

It. Was. Freakin' awesome. <3

& Now onto Taylor Swift. (her performance of TODAY WAS A FAIRYTALE was soo beautiful! I can't wait for VALENTINES DAY to come out! Feb. 12th, 2010! Mark your calendars, people! <3) Congrats to her on her winning of, what?

Four Grammys?

That's really phenomenal. Being a country singer, and all, that's a really tough and brilliant accomplishment. She really deserved Album of The Year. I'm sure she's still in shock, as are all the Gaga fans out there. Haha, I was a bit shocked myself, I love Gaga, but at the same time, I kind of expected Tay Swift to take in the win. She looked beautiful, too. AND BEYONCE LOOKED STUNNING. Katy Perry's always gorgeous, but I didn't like her dress. Miley looked *indecent, as always. DRESS YOUR AGE, geez. Rihanna keeps trying to be like Beyonce + Gaga, all beautiful & different, but she can't pull it off. Oh, and Gaga? She's done it again. <3 AND JULES -- who accompanied Jay Z & Beyonce, and shared the floor with Jay Z & Rihanna when they made their acceptance speech -- WAS SO ADORABLE!

[Rihanna: Jules, you wanna say anything? *lifts him up to the mic*
Jules: No, thanks.]
AWWWW! <3 He is soooooo cute! And his eyes are gorgeous. SPEAKING OF GORGEOUS: Nick Jonas. 'nough said. Haha, alright, one more thing: & yes, I saved the best for last...

the Michael Jackson (RIP) Tribute,

which included Celine Dion, Usher, Carrie Underwood, and others. It was truley inspirational. beautiful. mesmerizing. This was my other favorite moment of the night, by the way. He is STILL such a legend, his legacy will never die. It was adorable when his son & daughter made their acceptance speech on behalf of their father. I almost cried. His son was so confident, and his daughter was so, so brave. <3 (& the intire tribute performance being in 3D made it all the more amazing to watch! --thank God for my 3D-glasses from one of my DVDs. haha)

Anyway, back to business! =)

G'bye & G'nite, everyone! <3

P.S. I've gotten a new creative idea for the titles of my blog entries: song titles. lol yeah, like you didn't see that one coming, haha. The song titles are going to somewhat reflect an idea of the theme of each blog, so you can tell each from one another. Anyway, in case you feel the urge or curiosity to give the song a listen, I'll also include the artist name in brackets beside the song title. Alright, that's it for tonight,
adios amigos! =)

always & FOREVER,

2010-01-27T23:24:00.010-05:00

oh, the memories.

                   "People always leave.
                        ...but I'm sure you'll stick around."

-- My best friend, my confidant, my sister, my best buddy, my pal, my always-gonna-be-there-no-matter-what person, my shoulder to cry on, my amigo, my love, my life, my other half,

Yuddha Demitra Devi Maharaj (Jonas) <3

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I love you today,
more than yesterday,
but not as half as much as tomorrow.

abcdefghiloveyouvwxyz,

I've known Yuddha

for more than half my life.

We met on the

3rd day

of 3rd grade.

I started school a day late that year,

and coincidentally, she did, too, except she was two days late.

We met. We talked. We laughed.

& the rest, as they say is history.

"And in the end the love you take,

is equal to the love you make."

- The Beatles

always & forever & ever & eternity,

I love you, m'dear. It's you & me, thick & thin.
Whatever curveballs life throws at us, we knock straight outta the park.

Andrea Marian Dookhie
& Yuddha Demitra-Devi Maharaj,

...10 years & counting.

-- we'll make homeruns, baby.
SUNSHINE&BUBBLES: we're history in the making.

the BUBBLEGUM years, part 2.

2010-01-27T21:42:00.006-05:00

"Lollipops turn into cigarettes.

The innocent ones turn into sluts.

~~Homework~~ goes in the trash.

Mobile phones are being used in class.

Detention becomes suspension.

Soda becomes vodka.

Bikes become cars.

Kisses turn into sex.
Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground?
When protection meant wearing a helmet?
When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties?
When Daddy’s shoulders were the highest place on earth and Mommy was your hero?
Your worst enemies were your siblings.
Race issues were about who ran the fastest.
War was only a card game.
And the only drug you knew was cough medicine.
When wearing a skirt didn’t make you a slut.
The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees,
and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow?
...And we couldn’t wait to grow up."

I love you, Ruby Saini. > xoxo, S&B, you gotta love us.

MUSIC is what feelings SOUND like. ♫

2010-01-25T23:59:00.007-05:00

Alright so here's the deal:

I had this list since the first week of 2010, & I figured, it's exam week, who needs to study & succeed, anyway? So I'm posting this now. My second official song recommendation list. Or songs that I can't get enough of. Songs that make my playlist. My day. My life. Songs with meaning, melody & moments. The last list was my first, it was more colourful & it was kinda chaotic. This one's alphabetized, ...& there are a LOT more... 210 songs to begin the year 2010. hey, atleast I didn't post 2010 songs to being the year 2010. haha, so scroll through, pick out some that you're familiar with, or even pick out some that you know nothing about. Guaranteed your next favourite song's in this list--& not just 'cause it's so freakin' long, but 'cause it's full of some of the most amazing songs you've never heard. So take a look, knock yourself out. (& yes, I love love love red.)

xoxo, andreamariandookhie.

(500) Days of Summer - A Story Of Boy Meets Girl

30 Seconds To Mars - Kings & Queens

50 Cent ft. Eminem - Psycho

Anberlin - Enjoy The Silence

Angels & Airwaves - Secret Crowds

Angels & Airwaves - Everything’s Magic

Arcade Fire - In The Backseat

Arcade Fire - Wake Up

Army Navy - Silvery Sleds

Asher Roth - Perfectionist

Band of Horses - Our Swords

Band of Horses - The Funeral

Barcelona - Come Back When You Can

Barcelona - Stars

Belle & Sebastian - If She Wants Me

Belle & Sebastian - The Boy With The Arab Stap

Ben E. King - Stand By Me

Bishop Allen - Middle Management

Bittersweet - Don't Forget To Breathe

Breakfast At Tiffany's - Moon River

Carla Bruni - Quelqu'un M'a Dit
Chris Bell - Speed of Sound

CobraStarship - The World Has Its Shine (But I Would Drop It On A Dime)

Color of Clouds - Burn It Down

Dashboard Confessional - Belle of the Boulevard

Dashboard Confessional - Don't Wait

Dashboard Confessional - Even Now

Devendra Banhart - Lover

Diana Krall - Bye, Bye, Blackbird

Doves - There Goes The Fear

Down With Webster - Rich Girl

Down With Webster - Time To Win

Dr. Dre ft. Eminem - Forgot About Dre

Ella Fitzgerald - Let's Do It (Let's Fall In Love)

Elvis Costello - (I Don't Want To Go To) Chelsea

Elvis Costello - (What's So Funny 'Bout) Peace, Love & Understanding

Elvis Costello - Accidents Will Happen

Elvis Costello - Brilliant Mistake

Elvis Costello - Dancing In The Moonlight

Elvis Costello - Everyday I Write The Book

Elvis Costello - I Want You

Elvis Costello - I'll Never Fall In Love Again

Elvis Costello - You Belong To Me

Eminem - Buffalo Bill

Eminem - Cleanin' Out My Closet

Eminem - Elevator

Eminem - Hello

Eminem - I Just Don't Give A Fu*k

Eminem - I Still Don't Give A Fu*k

Eminem - Insane

Eminem - Like Toy Soldiers

Eminem - Lose Yourself

Eminem - Music Box

Eminem - My Dad's Gone Crazy

Eminem - Soldier

Eminem - The Way I Am

Eric Hutchinson - Rock & Roll

Feist - Mushaboom

Five For Fighting - Chances

Frank Sinatra - Blue Moon

Frank Sinatra - I Won't Dance

Frank Sinatra - It Had To Be You

Frank Sinatra - The Way You Look Tonight

Frank Sinatra - Unforgettable

Hall & Oates - You Make My Dreams

Jack's Mannequin - Bruised

Jack's Mannequin - Holiday From Real

Jack's Mannequin - I'm Ready

Jack's Mannequin - Orphans

Jack's Mannequin - Spinning

Jack's Mannequin - Swim

Jack's Mannequin - The Resolution

Jason Mraz - A Beautiful Mess

Jason Mraz - Butterfly

Jason Mraz - Details In Fabric (ft. James Morrison)

Jason Mraz - I Melt With You

Jason Mraz - If It Kills Me

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours (Remix) ft. Jah Cure & Lil Wayne

Jason Mraz - Kickin' It With You

Jason Mraz - Make It Mine

Jason Mraz - The Remedy

Jason Mraz - You & I Both

Jason Walker - Down

Jimmy Durante - I'll Be Seeing You

John Mayer - All We Ever Do Is Say Goodbye

John Mayer - Edge of Desire

John Mayer - Friends, Lovers, or Nothing

John Mayer - Half Of My Heart (ft. Taylor Swift)

John Mayer - Heartbreak Warfare

John Mayer - Perfectly Lonely

John Mayer - Say

John Mayer - Who Says

Johnny Cash - Cry! Cry! Cry!

Johnny Cash - Desperado

Johnny Cash - Give My Love To Rose

Johnny Cash - I Walk The Line

Johnny Cash - Ring of Fire

Jon McLaughlin - Four Years

Justin Timberlake - What Goes Around (Comes Around)

Keane - A Bad Dream

Kid Cudi - Pursuit of Happiness (feat. Mgmt & Ratatat)

Kid Cudi Ft. Cainin Krow - I Hear Them Calling (Prod. By Eminem)

Lady GaGa - Eh Eh (Nothing Else I Can Say)

Landon Pigg - Can't Let Go

Leona Lewis - Happy

Leona Lewis ft. OneRepublic - Lost Then Found

Lights - Pretend

Lights - River

Lights - The Listening

Lil Wayne & Eminem - Drop The World

Lil Wayne ft. Nicki Minaj - Knockout

Low Shoulder - Through The Trees

Mark Mothersbaugh - Nick & Norah's Theme

Maroon 5 - This Love

Meaghan Smith - Here Comes Your Man

Michael Buble - Haven't Met You Yet

Michael Buble - Save The Last Dance For Me

Mumm-ra - She's Got You High

Muse - Undisclosed Desires

My Chemical Romance – Famous Last Words

Nas - Bridging The Gap

Nick Jonas & the Administration - Rose Garden

Nick Jonas & the Administration - Stay

Nick Jonas & the Administration - Who I Am

Nicki Minaj - Autobiography

Nicki Minaj - Still I Rise

Noisettes - Don't Upset The Rhythm

OneRepublic - Come Home

OneRepublic - Everybody Loves Me

OneRepublic - Good Life

OneRepublic - Marchin On

Owl City - If My Heart Was A House

Owl City - Rainbow Veins

Owl City - The Saltwater Room

Owl City - Vanilla Twilight

P!nk - Don't Let Me Get Me

Papoose ft. Biggie Smalls - I Just Want The Paper

Parachute - She Is Love

Paramore - Brick By Boring Brick

Paramore - Careful

Paramore - Playing God

Paramore - The Only Exception

Paul Tiernan - How To Say Goodbye

Plumb - Cut

Regina Spektor - Hero

Regina Spektor - Us

Relient K - Must Have Done Something Right

Richard Hawley - Baby, You're My Light

Safety Suit - Stay

Sean Paul - Hold My Hand

Seether - Careless Whisper

Selena Gomez - I Got U

Selena Gomez - More

Selena Gomez - Naturally

She & Him - Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want

Shout Out Louds - Very Loud

Simon And Garfunkel - Bookends

Sixpence None The Richer - Kiss Me

Sixpence None The Richer - There She Goes

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars

Snow Patrol - Open Your Eyes

Stabilo - Flawed Design

Strays Don't Sleep - For Blue Skies

Switchfoot - Dancing In The Moonlight

Switchfoot - I Dare You To Move

Switchfoot - We Are One Tonight

Switchfoot - Yet

Switchfoot - Your Love Is A Song

Takka Takka - Fever

tATu - All The Things She Said

tATu - How Soon Is Now

tATu - Loves Me Not

tATu - Show Me Love

tATu - They're Not Gonna Get Us

Taylor Swift - Today Was A Fairytale

The All-American Rejects - Eyelash Wishes

The Avett Brothers - I And Love And You

The Beatles - The End

The Beatles - Yesterday

The Black Lips - Bad Kids

The Cocteau Twins - Alice

The Dead 60s - Riot Radio

The Fray - Absolute

The Honorary Title - The City's Summer

The Honorary Title - Thin Layer

The Real Tuesday Weld - Last Words

The Script - Before The Worst

The Script - Break Even

The Script - Fall For Anything

The Script - If You See Kay

The Script - I'm Yours

The Script - The End Where I Begin

The Script - The Man Who Can't Be Moved

The Script - We Cry

The Secret Handshake - Summer Of ‘98

The Smiths - Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want

The Smiths - There Is A Light That Never Goes Out

The Submarines - Xavia

The Temper Trap - Sweet Disposition

Train - Drops of Jupiter

Trent Dabbs & Amy Stroup - The Odds of Being Alone

Tricky - Hell Is Around The Corner

Tyrone Wells - This Is Beautiful

U2 - Stuck In A Moment

Vampire Weekend - Exit Music

Vampire Weekend - Ottoman

Vampire Weekend - The Kids Don't Stand A Chance

Wakey!Wakey! - Brooklyn

We Are Scientists - After Hours

Wolfmother - Vagabond

Enjoy. ; )

Just keep your head above, swim.

2010-01-16T18:01:00.002-05:00

I swim for brighter days

Despite the absence of sun."

- Jack's Mannequin, Swim.

Here is, as promised, the amazing, inspiring, & absolutely wonderful lyrics to my 2010 anthem, Swim, by Jack's Mannequin. Enjoy it. Read it. Listen to it. Love it. Learn it. Live it.

"Swim for the music that saves you

When you're not so sure you'll survive."

Yes, I made this, it was much easier than copy/pasting it to a blog & then adding a new format. So if you want it, take it, but atleast let me know. Anyway, this is my chosen anthem for 2010. Jack's Mannequin - Swim. I hope it's an inspiration to you as much as it is to me.

"I'm not giving in
I swim."

...& a happy new year! (?)

2010-01-03T18:47:00.001-05:00

♫♥

We wish you a merry christmas,

we wish you a merry christmas,

...and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Adios, two-thousand-and-nine,
and helloooooooo to the new year. The decade.
The big twenty-ten. That's

10.

2010.

aka, no more double 00's.

Kind of hard to swallow when you think about it like that, huh?

What's more, is that the night of New Years Eve had a

FULL MOON.

That'll only happen about once every N1NETE9N years.

Take that in. The next time that happens, I'll be...

*counts*

thirty five.

:| 35.

That's 16 + 19.

[Sweet 16] plus [19 years 'til the next full moon on NYE]

= THIRTY FIVE.

.......

...oh boy.

Alright, enough math. Tomorrow's school, tomorrow's no-more-sleeping-in, and tomorrow's math and homework and assignments and Independant Study Units (ISUs) and exams and tests and UGH.

No more thinking about that. Gosh, 2012 sounds more intriguing than school.

ANYWAY. So, I ended 2009 with the same song I'd started it off with,

You're Making It Come Alive

by My Favourite Highway. ♥

And 2010's anthem?
It's not in the past song list (which I should do more of) so I'll just tell ya,

SWIM by JACK'S MANNEQUIN. ♥

Can't wait to end 2010 with this one, it's just as amazing as last year's anthem. I wonder what next year's anthem will be...

Alright, I'll end this post -- which I originally started on Jan.1st of the big 2010, but left it in my drafts 'til I was ready to post it -- and I'll make another post with the lyrics to 2010's anthem. ♥

Here's to a better year,

fewer ~~tears~~,
wiser choices,
LOUDER laughs,
w i d e r smiles,
more photographs,
bigger opportunities,
minor mistakes,
countless memories,
brighter days,
warmer hugs,
but most importantly,

forever-filled love. ♥

Happy New Year, Everyone! 2010 -- make the best of it.

Each minute, each moment.

Because even if you've wasted a minute and feel like it's nothing,

remember, each minute taken for granted

is 60 seconds of life you'll

never get back.

♡ sixteen candles

2009-11-30T23:46:00.001-05:00

TAYLOR SWIFT - THE BEST DAY

I'm five years old, it's getting cold, I've got my big coat on
I hear your laugh and look up smiling at you, I run and run
Past the pumpkin patch and the tractor rides,
look now, the sky is gold
I hug your legs and fall asleep on the way home

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall
But I know you're not scared of anything at all
Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day with you today

I'm thirteen now and don't know how my friends could be so mean
I come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys
And we drive and drive until we found a town far enough away
And we talk and window shop 'til I've forgotten all their names

I don't know who I'm gonna talk to now at school
But I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you
Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay
But I know I had the best day with you today

I have an excellent father; his strength is making me stronger
God smiles on my ~~little~~ big brother,
inside and out, he's better than I am
I grew up in a pretty house and I had space to run
And I had the best days with you

There is a video I found from back when I was three
You set up a paint set in the kitchen and you're talking to me
It's the age of princesses and pirate ships and the seven dwarfs
And Daddy's smart and you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

And now I know why the all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
For staying back and watching me shine

And I didn't know if you knew, so I'm takin' this chance to say
That I had the best day with you, today.

Nothing's ever built to last. (October13th'09)

2009-10-13T21:36:00.001-04:00

"NOTHING'S going to change," that's what they always say, "I won't EVER let you let me go."

And I feared it, but I knew there would come a day, where that wall I BUILT would be no more.

But the essence of love gets left behind when a story is written too fast,

"I told you so," says the voice in my mind...

Happy endings weren't made TO LAST.

‹ 3 when words fail, music SPEAKS...

2009-10-08T21:50:00.001-04:00

music is my heroin.

♥

Butch Walker - Mix Tape

Rob Thomas - Her Diamonds

Rob Thomas - Mockingbird

A Fine Frenzy - Happier

Jason Derulo - Whatcha Say (ft. Imogen Heap)

Miley Cyrus - When I Look At You

La Rocca - Non Believer

Alice Peacock - The Beginning

St. Lola In The Fields - Don't Say

Muse - Uprising

James Blunt - Goodbye, My Lover

Kate Voegele - Manhattan From The Sky

The Verve - Bittersweet Symphony

Youth Group - Forever Young

Jeff Buckley - Hallelujah

Nicole Scherzinger - Happily Never After

Erin McCarley - Love, Save The Empty

Eminem - Beautiful

Eminem - When I'm Gone

Eminem - Hailie's Song

Eminem - Mockingbird

Eminem - Sing For The Moment

Eminem - Stan

Liz Phair - Why Can't I

Get Up Kids - Like A Man Possessed

The Click Five - I'll Take My Chances

Nickelback - Never Gonna Be Alone

Nickelback - Far Away

Nickelback - I'd Come For You

Nickelback - If Everyone Cared

Nickelback - If Today Was Your Last Day

Switchfoot - You

Switchfoot - I Dare You To Move

Jonas Brothers - Take A Breath

Jonas Brothers - Underdog

Jonas Brothers - Lovebug

Jonas Brothers - When You Look Me In The Eyes

Jonas Brothers - Can't Have You

Jonas Brothers - Black Keys

Jonas Brothers - Before The Storm (ft. Miley Cyrus)

Michael Jackson - You Are Not Alone

Michael Jackson - Man In The Mirror

Michael Jackson - Black or White

John Mayer - Waiting On The World To Change

Kate Voegele - Sweet Silver Lining

Kate Voegele - Wish You Were

Kate Voegele - You Can't Break A Broken Heart

Kate Voegele - Angel

Kate Voegele - It's Only Life

Ryan Adams - When The Stars Go Blue

Keane - We Might As Well Be Strangers

Keane - Somewhere Only We Know

Nada Surf - Always Love

Bon Jovi - You Give Love A Bad Name

Elvis Costello - Alison

Nirvana - Heart Shaped Box

The Beatles - Help

Jack's Mannequin - Dark Blue

Jack's Mannequin - The Mixed Tape

Jack's Mannequin - La La Lie

Haley James Scott - Halo

The Script - Talk You Down

The Script - Live Like We're Dying

Jimmy Eat World - Pain

Jimmy Eat World - Work

Jimmy Eat World - Just Watch The Fireworks

A Fine Frenzy - You Picked Me

A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover

A Fine Frenzy - Ashes And Wine

A Fine Frenzy - Near To You

A Fine Frenzy - Lifesize

Augustana - Boston

Augustana - Hey Now

Augustana - Fire

Augustana - I Still Ain't Over You

Fall Out Boy - Sugar We're Going Down

Fall Out Boy - I'm Like A Lawyer With The Way I'm Always Trying To Get You Off (Me & You)

Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest

Linkin Park - What I've Done

Linkin Park - New Divide

The Fray - All At Once

The Fray - You Found Me

The Fray - Never Say Never

The Fray - How To Save A Life

The Fray - Look After You

The Fray - Over My Head

The Fray - Syndicate

Motion City Soundtrack - Where I Belong

Motion City Soundtrack - Broken Heart

Motion City Soundtrack - It Had To Be You

Angels & Airwaves - Lifeline

Angels & Airwaves - Secret Crowds

Angels & Airwaves - The Adventure

Angels & Airwaves - Distraction

Goo Goo Dolls - Iris

Jimmy Eat World - Hear You Me

U2 - Vertigo

Katy Perry - Self Inflicted

Katy Perry - Simple

Matt White - Love

Matt White - Wait For Love

Maroon 5 - Goodnight, Goodnight

Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved

Maroon 5 - I Won't Go Home Without You

Maroon 5 - Sunday Morning

Maroon 5 - Nothing Lasts Forever

Gavin DeGraw - We Belong Together

Gavin DeGraw - More Than Anyone

Gavin DeGraw - Chariot

Gavin DeGraw - I Don't Wanna Be

Gavin DeGraw - She Holds A Key

Michael Buble - Lost

Michael Buble - Home

Until June - You Do

Until June - Sleepless

Tegan and Sara - Don't Confess

OneRepublic - Say (All I Need)

OneRepublic - All We Are

OneRepublic - Apologize

OneRepublic - Someone To Save You

Parachute - The Mess I Made

Parachute - Words Meet Heartbeats

Jonny Lang - Beautiful One

Tyler Hilton - Missing You

Tyler Hilton - When It Comes

My Favorite Highway - What Are You Waiting For

My Favorite Highway - You're Making It Come Alive

My Favorite Highway - The Getaway

Forever The Sickest Kids - Whoa Oh (Me vs. Everyone)

Forever The Sickest Kids - My Worst Nightmare

Forever The Sickest Kids - Believe Me, I'm Lying

The All-American Rejects - Another Heart Calls (ft. The Pierces)

The All-American Rejects - Can't Take It

The All-American Rejects - Move Along

The All-American Rejects - Dirty Little Secret

The All-American Rejects - It Ends Tonight

The All-American Rejects - Fallin' Apart

The All-American Rejects - Breakin'

The All-American Rejects - Change Your Mind

The All-American Rejects - The Wind Blows

Green Day - 21 Guns

Rooney - When Did Your Heart Go Missing?

Paramore - The Only Exception

Paramore - When It Rains

Paramore - We Are Broken

Hedley - Gunnin'

Hedley - Trip

Hedley - For The Nights I Can't Remember

The Maine - Into Your Arms

The Maine - I Must Be Dreaming

Lifehouse - You And Me

Lifehouse - Broken

Lifehouse - Hanging By A Moment

♥

"People always leave."

2009-10-07T23:03:00.002-04:00

One of THOSE days...

2009-10-07T23:01:00.001-04:00

I guess, if anything, it's about taking chances, even when you think you're all out of chances. It's about giving forgiveness and unconditional love, even when it seems like you should only do the opposite. It's about trusting that god puts people in your life at certain moments so that you can capitalized the opportunity. It's all about the possibility. It's all about what you do with those possibilities. Life is short, but it moves so fast. Hang on and enjoy the ride. And when someone comes along with whom you enjoy spending the ride with...

hold on tight.

he confessed;
that when he grew up, he wanted to grow up with her.

because that's what people do,
they leap and hope to god they can fly because
otherwise you drop like a rock, wondering
the w h o l e w a y
d
o
w
n,
why did I just jump?
but here I am, falling, and the only one
that makes me feel like flying,
is you.

it's amazing what you can ~~hide~~, just by putting on a smile.

I'm ~~weird~~ with relationships.
I think I know what I want, and then I run.
I think I run because I'm scared,
I'm scared that I might get hurt.
Or maybe I just haven't found someone
who I know is worth being hurt for.

the funny thing about faking a smile?
the more you do it, the more you forget what you were trying to hide behind it.

"She was a girl who knew how to act happy, even when she was sad. That's important."
-- Marilyn Monroe (L)

"wishes are for believers." (April20th'09)

2009-10-07T21:46:00.001-04:00

A simple girl, yet so complex
always worried about what happened next
paranoid, and often stressed
but none of this, would she confess

eyes filled with sorrow, afraid to blink
'cause everything, she'd overthink
the friendships that could sail or sink
she'd overanalyze anything

and her family, they treated she
with such distrust, with no belief
yet she still lived with her heart on her sleeve,
but this was her life, she couldn't just leave
neglected, she lost confidence
helpless, self consciousness
-was what's left, and self righteousness
-didn't exist, all she could do was wish...
that as time passed by, more and more
she would grow less insecure,
but wishes are for believers, and she was sure
she'd be forever doubtful, wihtout a cure
no hopes, no dreams, no faith in herself
her life belonged to someone else
she lived just to breathe, & all she had left
was her love, for everyone else

but herself.

"& this is why she's broken." (May10th'09)

2009-10-07T21:35:00.001-04:00

Tears stain the pages
as she lets out what no one knows
writing down the feelings
that she wouldn't dare expose

by day she's all smiles
by night tears run dry
living in denial
& she couldn't tell why

prayers left unanswered
questions left unasked
thoughts held hostage without ransom
emotions always masked

without a single explanation
or any reasoning at all
just simple complications
in large amounts though each seem small

heartbreak after heartbreak
all these words left unspoken

mistake after mistake
and this is why
she's b r o k e n .